It seemed he was so moved by the process of cleansing himself of his sins that he used his most impassioned prose to show God how much he wanted to emulate Him. He was both conflicted and intrigued by his past ability to want such materialism as well as the companionship of both a wife, or any woman for that matter, and friends. This is further evidenced by his marvel at how he had once thought his traits his own, then realizing his ignorance and pride, gave the praise to God for granting him such abilities, “Yet all these were gifts of my God, for I did not give them to myself.” (page 19) This was not solely related to material things or possessions however, as he also spoke of feeling he had talents and friends he thought he had earned but knew he had not. He continued on, finding joy in the thanks being given, “but in this lay my sin: that I sought pleasure, nobility, and truth not in God but in the beings He had created, myself and others. Thus I fell into sorrow and confusion and error. (page
It seemed he was so moved by the process of cleansing himself of his sins that he used his most impassioned prose to show God how much he wanted to emulate Him. He was both conflicted and intrigued by his past ability to want such materialism as well as the companionship of both a wife, or any woman for that matter, and friends. This is further evidenced by his marvel at how he had once thought his traits his own, then realizing his ignorance and pride, gave the praise to God for granting him such abilities, “Yet all these were gifts of my God, for I did not give them to myself.” (page 19) This was not solely related to material things or possessions however, as he also spoke of feeling he had talents and friends he thought he had earned but knew he had not. He continued on, finding joy in the thanks being given, “but in this lay my sin: that I sought pleasure, nobility, and truth not in God but in the beings He had created, myself and others. Thus I fell into sorrow and confusion and error. (page