I was a mess most of that summer I ended up getting sick and losing a lot of people who I thought I could trust in so much. I cried so many times that I ran out of tears, until the point I thought that emotions were nothing but trouble . I started to believe that hoping for happiness would always lead to sadness. I fell into a deep empty hole of darkness and desperation to feel something authentic.That’s how I started my tenth grade year of high school with no friends,feelings or hope. My goal that year had been to fixate on school just school, but who was I kidding the people that hurt me were staring me in my face everyday of my life, I just could not get rid of them. All I wanted was to forget that this world, my life, had ever existed. To disappear with my emotions so long ago, but of course the people who hurt me became my friends even though I never agreed to anything. Nevertheless this time around I was more cautious and distant, I had no one to confide in because I was afraid. I did endeavor a few times, but it just seemed that I was asking an extravagant amount of one person to just avail me to fight my battles so I can win in a war against
I was a mess most of that summer I ended up getting sick and losing a lot of people who I thought I could trust in so much. I cried so many times that I ran out of tears, until the point I thought that emotions were nothing but trouble . I started to believe that hoping for happiness would always lead to sadness. I fell into a deep empty hole of darkness and desperation to feel something authentic.That’s how I started my tenth grade year of high school with no friends,feelings or hope. My goal that year had been to fixate on school just school, but who was I kidding the people that hurt me were staring me in my face everyday of my life, I just could not get rid of them. All I wanted was to forget that this world, my life, had ever existed. To disappear with my emotions so long ago, but of course the people who hurt me became my friends even though I never agreed to anything. Nevertheless this time around I was more cautious and distant, I had no one to confide in because I was afraid. I did endeavor a few times, but it just seemed that I was asking an extravagant amount of one person to just avail me to fight my battles so I can win in a war against