The repressed feeling or emotion is “blocked because it has been judged to be potentially disruptive to or psychological stability or self-image” (Berk 546). Males are taught at an early age to repress their emotions. They are discouraged from showing anything that may be viewed as weakness, in both the physical and emotional form. Thus, males develop into adulthood always suppressing their emotions, and never truly understanding them. Diaz’s main protagonist, Oscar De Leon, although criticized for not exhibiting the typical Dominican machismo attitude, he is still affected by the negative consequences. Oscar was unable to express himself emotionally, “he cried often for his love of some girl or another. Cried in the bathroom, where nobody could hear him” (Diaz 24). Oscar’s reoccurring cycle of unrequited love and depression lead to a suicide attempt. The warning signs were present, he often spoke about feeling hopeless, and he was withdrawn from his family and displayed extreme mood swings. “Homes had it bad; couldn’t so much as see a cute girl without breaking into shakes. Developed crushes out of nothing” (Diaz 173).
Feeling the need to always exhibit hyper masculinity, can lead to health issues such as sexual dysfunctions, insomnia, depression, weight gain, and weight loss. All of which, were evident in Oscar De Leon. Oscar often felt misunderstood by those around him. He did not fit into this hyper masculine role. “Sophomore year Oscar found himself weighing in at a whopping 245 (260 when he was depressed, which was often) and it has become clear to everybody, especially his family, that he’d become the neighborhood pariguayo” (Dominican slang for a guy that’s all talk and no action) (Diaz