One example is that Rachel is searching to find and rediscover herself. She lost her husband of five years and recently lost her job. She is also an alcoholic and is seeking counseling from Dr. Abdic. Drinking is a big problem in Rachel’s life, as she tells Kamal in counseling: “I was trying to get pregnant. I couldn’t, and I became depressed. That’s when it started” (Hawkins 206). Another connection is Megan Hipwell, who is also dealing with identity issues as a result of her past. Her brother, Ben, passed away, and she became out of touch with the rest of her family. She is trying to forget the life she used to have with Mac and her infant child. Rachel is also making up the identity and life of the people she sees on her train ride into work. She passed Scott and Megan’s house and created a make believe life: Jason and Jess, a perfectly golden couple, madly in love. Rachel also has been keeping tabs on her old house, the one that Tom, Anna, and Evie currently occupy. Events in Rachel’s life have caused her to identify with the lives of others, rather than finding her own self after such drastic …show more content…
Rachel and Scott are working together to find answers and the truth of what happened the night Megan went missing. They want justice to be served, and Rachel is trying to get her memory back from the blackout that occurred. There are also accusations in the media that claim Megan was a child killer. No one knows the real story about Megan’s baby and the drowning accident, except for Kamal, her not-so-very-confidential therapist, and her ex, Mac. ☺ Anna is panicking because she left Megan alone to babysit Evie when she was at work or had to run errands. If Megan really was a child killer, Anna had given her plenty of opportunities to hurt Evie. Scott has also been informed of the affair his wife was having with Dr. Abdic. He feels like a craven for being oblivious to his failing marriage. He wants to know what went wrong in their relationship and why she started loving a different man. Scott is also blaming himself for making Megan start counseling, telling Rachel, “The therapy seemed to be helping. She was happier. Now I know why” (Hawkins 120). Scott is also frustrated as to why Kamal is being released after his arrest, since Scott is convinced that this is the man that killed his wife. Kamal had a motive to kill Megan, and Scott knows there is evidence pointing in Kamal’s direction, even if the police claim it is negligible. The police, Scott, and Rachel, as well as local citizens, want the truth about that really happened