Disclaimer Alert! Please to anyone who reads this, I don’t want to get the wrong idea about anything. I’m going to be telling issues about me some sensitive one to be precise. To let you know I have received help; so I don’t want any underserved attention. It is done and over with. All I’m just trying to make my point across, PEOPLE STOP LYING TO YOURSELF OK?
Here goes nothing… During eighth grade to my knowledge everything was perfect. I was getting out of middle school starting the year with a great start. Awesome friends and a new boyfriend at my side, I was enjoying life. Outside of school my boyfriend was the one of my priorities, kinda a cliche. It was a dream, our relationship was awesome. He treated me like a princess, …show more content…
I was a toy to him really, he did all he wanted to me. Then after the “ sessions” he would manipulate me to come back to him. All the verbal, mental, and physical abuse it started to take effect on me. “ Escape…. Escape….” Escape was all in my mind. I was saying to myself for ten months “ everything is my fault right?” Then I became unless to him, and left.
Sadly this was the kickstarter to many problems. Inside school kids were running away from home, taking drug, drinking, having sex, and committing suicide. We are just middle schoolers! My best friend -she and I were on the same swim-team- ending up being victim to self harm, taking painkillers, turing into an anorexic, and obsessing on suicide. Attempting left and right. Being a good friend i tried my hardest and best to escape falling into the hole, but building put walls to hide she took me with her. I didn't want to see her die, I saw it at …show more content…
A guy who taught me stop building wall, adding layer because its not worth it. Show people who you really are, and tell them if they don’t like it go away. Even though he known what happen to me yet he treated me as a normal girl. To this day I still have problems, I will always have a feeling whenever I near a guy. Now what’s different is that I have my cousin and friends to help me. Someone to rely on, “ a shoulder to cry on” I had a support system. What I want people to take away from my whole spiel was stop building wall, don’t ever lie to yourself because in the end you’ll be hurting yourself not protecting. It easier said than done, in the long run bad things are going to happen. The world will still keep on marching it course, and so do we. Stop staying in the past, you are living in the present enjoy it. Nothing will come easy but it you try in the smallest amount, it will become smoother. Things will always end, just hold on and embrace yourself. NO lying or