Yet, it also guided him to outlets in which he could find entertainment and satisfaction without feeling so alone. One of these sources of fabricated attention was writing. Orwell remarks, “I had the lonely child 's habit of making up stories and holding conversations with imaginary persons, and I think from the very start my literary ambitions were mixed up with the feeling of being isolated and undervalued.” () Noting that, the feeling of isolation is one that is strongly present within Winston Smith. Under the rule of Big Brother, Smith also became sick, however, in a slightly different way. Since the government restricted the human need for natural affection, he easily becomes dissatisfied with his own life. With this, his job within a government ministry, makes him even more displeased with existence because it requires to pay constant attention to his surroundings and actions, as the government is constantly watching and listening. Still, like the young Orwell, Smith turns to a diary to pour out his thoughts and observations, and at times vent his frustration. At one
Yet, it also guided him to outlets in which he could find entertainment and satisfaction without feeling so alone. One of these sources of fabricated attention was writing. Orwell remarks, “I had the lonely child 's habit of making up stories and holding conversations with imaginary persons, and I think from the very start my literary ambitions were mixed up with the feeling of being isolated and undervalued.” () Noting that, the feeling of isolation is one that is strongly present within Winston Smith. Under the rule of Big Brother, Smith also became sick, however, in a slightly different way. Since the government restricted the human need for natural affection, he easily becomes dissatisfied with his own life. With this, his job within a government ministry, makes him even more displeased with existence because it requires to pay constant attention to his surroundings and actions, as the government is constantly watching and listening. Still, like the young Orwell, Smith turns to a diary to pour out his thoughts and observations, and at times vent his frustration. At one